My tender prison

2011-07-09T13:21:00.000-07:00

the thoughts are like a night sea

churning with monsters prey and predator beneath

vast and seemingly continuous

the moon glow just a mocking reflection

anchor, need an anchor

i will sink

here

alone and lost

.

2008-06-24T19:31:00.000-07:00

pigs can fly and chew on your bones
camel pass through needles and toe your pants
pirates sing and steal your voice
and
I can
write to
myself

2007-04-21T12:28:00.000-07:00

When will my wine soaked heart learn that
the fear of uncertainty is steering me
into a haunting corner, wavering
my tomorrow
into dust

?

2007-04-21T08:39:00.000-07:00

I am the song I cannot sing
I am chained to your whims
I am the lesson I cannot learn
I am the hallow cistern
I am the eyes of the dead
I am bound to your might
I am the over-wound clock
I am the sun's last breath
I am the fading dream
Drink, drink, drink my surrender

Exempt

2006-12-10T12:50:00.000-08:00

I don't need a pond
I close my eyes and things disappear
I don't need to tell anyone
I have convictions of impunity
I don't need the network
I know the usual ending

2006-12-10T12:49:00.000-08:00

When will I be whole again?

Crying for the absence of my someday

Missing the sound of a far-away stranger’s voice

If I had only known the how relative the word sanity really is,

I might have been the me I truly wanted and told the rest of them to fuck off.

2006-11-26T13:53:00.000-08:00

wine of your thoughts
from fruits of conviction
fermented in gravel
tumbling off an echo

pass down the white reeds
and the books of mystery
till the heart weighs lighter
than the feather of death

2006-10-06T20:46:00.000-07:00

My mailman is very cute
I'm jealous of his little suit
He has beautiful blue eyes
Although, I hope his jeep dies
Just for one single day I will
be happy not to receive a bill

3

2006-10-02T08:51:00.000-07:00

instill lucid delirium

resurrect drowning hidden

secret sheltered separates

lying drowned referee

diarrhea inequity adapted

aptitude fields adorned

My Pastime

2006-08-22T11:26:00.000-07:00

You’re slipping

Fading from the

Lips of my love

You were close

So close to synergy

Close to oblivion

Sweet sticky sweat

Tasting of salt and

Warm anticipation

Sinful, beautiful devil

Taunting, teasing

My cat into heat

Your wicked gaze

Split my tail

Whimpering still

Mischievous withering

Where has my

Pleasure gone?

2006-08-01T22:16:00.000-07:00

There is no connection
The ports collect dust

Ties are loose and tenuous
Ends are faded and frayed

Hell is in the fingertips
hovering over my breath

signal strength is low
the files are corrupted

Christ of Courage

2006-07-26T08:14:00.000-07:00

God implodes in small portions
Unspecified horizons to come

Flailing for the binding ties
Searching for the rope of strength
Daring the quiet to make a move

Despite the arrows of deception,
One foot follows the other

ATTENTION

2006-07-21T12:54:00.000-07:00

Some little fucker blew his nose all over this blog's comments section. If you see any automated shitpiles, then ignore them completely. Do not click on the accompanying link.

I haven't the time to delete that many droppings. Word verification on.

Ode to Reading Glasses

2006-07-08T15:22:00.000-07:00

He slowly crept in my head
Innocent
He tickled my attention
Unexpected
He’s on the projection screen
Ovation
He’s a slapstick main event
Chuckle
His witty heart bruised
Accustomed
His roots are twisted
A labyrinth
His body is belligerent
Imprisoned
His branches are branchless
Scarce
His fingers beget his legacy
Vehicle
He’s a motherless father
Surrogate
He has food on his lips
Nourishing
He's as sincere as a dog
Soothing
He kisses my forehead
Blue contact
He lies in the lap of a sunset
Breathless
He makes me afraid
Distance

(for a man I'd like to call friend)

2006-06-27T15:49:00.000-07:00

There is a man named Abdul.

He has skin like chocolate
Smooth, rich brown, flawless
Abdul has a smile of a lover
Sweet, inviting, contagious
I want to use my teeth on him
Soft nips, nibbling, biting
Abdul has disturbing legs
Long, powerful, arousing
I want to use my hands on him
Caressing, searching, gripping
He has a voice like water
Clear, dripping, soothing
Abdul has the hips of a machine
Sturdy, evocative, energetic
He has a spirit like a disease
Infectious, durable, adaptable

Someday I will meet Abdul.

the chancellor

2006-06-25T21:17:00.000-07:00

His back is broken and raw
His knuckles swollen and torn
His eyes fixed and cloudy
His breathing slow and steady

He is alone and cold
He is tired and drained
He is troubled and distracted
He is lethargic and still

He is a component of humanity
He is a portion of peace
He is a member of infinity
He is an element of God

Hinge

2006-06-14T18:13:00.000-07:00

The heat conducts thru the metal
giving it a slightly odd shape
The rain does not permeate
yet foretells the coming rust

Each entry takes further heft,
the burden heard in the creaking
The connections slowly loosen
until it hangs uncertain, unsure

pictures

2006-06-04T18:53:00.000-07:00

I stand in the desert
the sky is so blue, so big
and my heart is open

summer

2006-06-04T16:57:00.000-07:00

Floating, dancing cottonwood
Cool, green sun catchers

Salty, meandering trickle
Hovering, busy pests

Tainted Epiphany

2006-06-04T13:22:00.000-07:00

Unicorns

Don’t let the unicorns get me
They chase me and haunt me
With their magical horns and
Dreamy manes like rainbows

Threatening to flail me open
With one swipe, one firm contact
Their pounding hooves echoing
Torment and melancholy with ease

Murder

A murder can make it stop
Kill the alabaster nightmares
My subconscious tuning fork
Tethering me to plain truth

Always nesting by the window
Accepting the skin without question
Loyal and enduring flock of scars
Not beguiled by flawless snow

Chinamen

2006-05-24T08:23:00.000-07:00

They were lying in ambush.
He came to his death by homicide.
He was murdered by a thief.
He committed suicide.
He was choked to death by a lasso.
He was starved to death in prison.
He was frozen to death in the snow.
He was killed by an assassin.
He tred to assassinate me.
He was an assaulter.
He was smothered in his room.
He was suffucated in his room.
He was shot dead by his enemy.
He was poisoned to death by his friend.
He tries to kill him by poisoning.
He tries to inflict death by poison.
He took the law in his own hand.
He tried to deprive me of my situation.

Here's one that was ~not~ well received

2006-05-09T12:21:00.000-07:00

Mother of the Year

Don’t tell me you love me
So you can throw it in my face

Don’t ask if I’m okay
So you can snide my choices

Don’t pat and smooth my hair
So you can pull at the tangles

Don’t look into my eyes
So you can see your reflection

Don’t teach me about sex
So you can demand abstinence

Don’t call me your daughter
So you can justify your life

chrysalis-part I

2006-05-09T11:21:00.000-07:00

during what went before
when the moon was new
and words were pictures
i was born forlorn
i sucked in the sifted air
and i cried to the deities

the pharoahs of my spirit
guided my tender feet
to the lazy desert
i soaked in the rays
of the enduring heavens
chained to the pyramids

a cloud formed
a suspicious respite
loud clapping in my ear
i drank the steadfast fall
escape to rapture
the sun rivaled as holy

Caprice

2006-05-01T14:17:00.000-07:00

Lie to me
Touch my hand
Call me beautiful
Tell me again
Just one more time
A moment of fantasy
See me exposed
Ask me for more
Embrace me naked
Call me brilliant
Say you’ll cherish me
All your attention
Let my hair
Grab your fingers
Smile at me
Call me love
Just one more time
Lie to me

Escape

2006-04-26T17:51:00.000-07:00

The bird of my brow
Breathing deeply
Slowly close my eyes

To sleep in the bed
Of tangled branches
The wind playing my hair

Tears of the moon
Washing my serenity
Duvet of darkness spotlighting
The hidden beloved stars

Lost in the ancient roots
Of an inner child
The stage of dreams
Coming too gradually

Sweet tides of night
Firm in my soul
Washing away time

2006-04-19T12:01:00.000-07:00

GenuineDays go by

Reaching

So far away

Waiting for deliverance

Hunger

2006-04-17T13:11:00.000-07:00

chest quickly expanding
breath coming fast
pounding in the ears
of the racing pulse
Run, run, run, run, run
screaming calves with
burning thighs and
jarred creaky joints
fists clenched tightly
faster, faster, faster, faster
not a sound; not a word
keep pushing through
ignore the scraping braches
block out the animal cries
straight ahead, straight ahead
into the dark, into the thick
sweat trickling between breasts
eyes locked on the jumpy horizon
hurry, hurry, hurry, hurry

Rima XXI

2006-04-10T07:50:00.000-07:00

by Gustavo Adolfo Bécquer

What is poetry?

2006-04-09T09:12:00.000-07:00

I hidden this for too long. Kept silent. How long can I endure? When will the veneer melt?
Would it matter any way?
The muscles grow tired, the mask grows weary.
The tar sticks so well.
the focus askew
another day gone

only me

2006-04-03T08:00:00.000-07:00

They don’t know

Can’t hear your song

Can’t imagine your fuck

Your sound speaks

To my shy and

Shakes my limbs

Close your eyes

Imagine us;

Exploring

See my lips

Hot and willing

Coaxing your molester

Lick my clinch

With your witty tongue

And relish the delicacy

Slowly envelope me

While I envelope you

Savor each portion

Wrenching

Slapping

Squeezing

Eyes to the sky

Hands to the mountains

Hips to the music

Imagine the jungle

The wild humidity

Feel the trickle

I know your animal

I can see your pieces

I can meet you there

Long

2006-04-02T15:32:00.000-07:00

Just too big to matter.
A haunted hefty hollow
Deceived into shadow.
Eclipsing the life of
Impossibly sweet dreams.
Mendacity from men
While pushing to reckon
The heart with the veracity.
Falling through the ice of
Sins committed by the
Mind of a sleeping soul.

Too true the eyes of
Touching hands and breath.
Can I long for you?
Can I sing for you?
Millions of miles strumming
The reach and appealing
The sky that flows openly.
Dare I dream the blue blossom?
A heart in remission
With the dreams and essence of
Untold and undefined want.

Sycophancy

2006-03-26T12:56:00.000-08:00

The dog who gets beat:
Unworthy, tender, and pitiful.
Waiting for that one soft hand,
For the sweet talk, for a name.
Always there to fetch and fall
With pleading, searching eyes.
Begging for crumbs and
Promising with a cower that
The foul the dog will rectify
If only the blows will halt.
No clinking chains needed for
There are choking binds unseen

Riddle

2006-03-20T13:01:00.000-08:00

If you've got it, then you want to share it. If you share it, then you haven't got it.

How is a raven like a writing desk?

What has no middle and no end and no beginning?

Somber/ sombrío

2006-03-13T08:20:00.000-08:00

A kiss
A kiss for me
A kiss
A kiss for you
A sad kiss
A kiss
A paper kiss
A cold kiss
No kisses
No more

Abandoned

2006-03-06T06:03:00.000-08:00

Golden soft spiraling diadem

Loving the pillow so sweetly.

Breathing in the atmosphere

Of absence and supple whimsy.

Perfume of longing and heat

Stirring heavily like a melody;

A song of fresh, beautiful hands

And purple locks sweeping faintly.

Waiting for the stretching limbs

Of the God of transgressions.

Gripping delirium and dismissing

Forgiveness with a slow nod.

Dimness binds closer to embrace

The vibrant enduring colors

Of blood and blue and bite.

Lost with demons and echoes

And no one’s missing me.

Pick

2006-03-04T13:49:00.000-08:00

orb
window
door
soul
judge
well
power
attention
orbit
calm
purpose
watch
fastener
recognition
sight
book
story
source

Tumble

2006-02-27T12:38:00.000-08:00

Whan I was a little girl, I would climb in the dryer and shut the door. It was warm, quiet, and dark. I would sit in there and just breathe. I had a wonderful feeling of comfort.
I want to go back.....close my eyes.....curl up....be warm again. I want to meet that girl who is still in the dryer. I want to smell her hair and touch her smile.

Savage

2006-02-22T08:46:00.000-08:00

I am your cheat
I am your thief
I am your liar
I am your whore

I have open the door
I have climbed the wall
I have eaten the clouds
I have burned the fields

I have shelterd
I have listened
I have counted
I have waited

The buzz will shout
The prison will crumble
The chains will melt
The you will be me

redirected from the pod

2006-02-21T10:44:00.000-08:00

Red is blue, light is fire, rain is soft, kiss eternal
Death is new, sword is love, blister is sweet, lost forever

Unnecessary Deliverance

2006-02-17T13:15:00.000-08:00

Seeing the edge; walking over to it to look down. There among the shadows is the spiky end. Hurt, shock, and permanence lie there. You know you shouldn’t, but the feeling of flying, the feeling of the breeze on your naked flesh is too great a beacon. Can’t hide from the temptation. Can’t will the pounding away, the flutters away. It takes over your thoughts like a cancer. One small moment of immense pleasure might be worth the catastrophe. You know it is wrong. You know it’s horrible. You know you will do it.

Voice

2006-02-13T05:08:00.000-08:00

soft silk
rough web

singing
yelling
screaming
whisper

entice me
inviting
promise

in my head
in my heart
in my hand

sweet one,
come to me

no comment

2006-02-10T14:34:00.000-08:00

aspirations and playing
fucked it up again
the name is so foreign
close back up
feeling sheepish
back in the hole where you belong
burnt the hand
tied the head
wounding wounding wounded
I've always been good at that
stuff stuff stuff it down
how can I be so blind

A Stressful Time

2006-02-10T11:27:00.000-08:00

Alarm clock

2006-02-09T13:47:00.000-08:00

I am sighing as I press into you. I pick up your shirt at its edges, peel it over your skin, up over your head, and nestle my face against your chest, sucking on your skin, biting you lightly.
I smooth the hair from your face and look into your eyes. I slip my hands up your back , rub your bare shoulder blades, and pull you closer to me. I softly press my lips to yours as you......

Careless

2006-02-06T10:21:00.000-08:00

I saw you in a cloud floating over the moon
You had that secret smile on your face
Not cold, not worried, not lonely, not kept
You were free, flying with the stars
Enjoying the night and cozy with the shadows
I called to you while you rode the wind away
How I want you to stay!
Will you remember me?
Will I see you again?
Will I hear your voice?
My sister, my sweet sister
One more kiss, one more laugh
Your beautiful spirit liberated
Your courage advertised
I'll howl for the pain you carried
and curse your tormentors
My sister, my sweet beautiful love

Ella

2006-01-30T06:25:00.000-08:00

consuming consuming
Is there nothing you won't touch?
Heavy jowls and bloated lips,
searching for your next meal.
Teeth of meat and eyes of blood,
You eat the flesh of all.
You're at your merriest
when your mouth is full.
Gluttony knows you well;
rumbling, living rot
festering, rolling sloth
failure failure
I won't be like you.

Fragile Flowers

2006-01-24T10:32:00.000-08:00

In the ice and the muck, there is a plce for us; a garden of crystal blooms that tinkle in the gust of your whispers. This secret keep of silent longing and lost fear drips with liquid remorse. Here, I sing to your dreams and tend to your whimpers. Lend me your tears and I'll fall out of myself. I will wear your strumming ache on my breast as your sparkling shadow calls to my monster in this garden, our garden, of imaginary touch.

the infiltration is complete

2006-01-20T08:28:00.000-08:00

Because some people can't keep their mouths shut, my other blog has been contaminated. It's no longer safe as an outlet. Looks like this prison is my only out; trapped but free.

Spinning

2006-01-17T14:18:00.000-08:00

Who will cry for me? Who will call my name? Who will lie for me?
Why is it all distorted? People see gray when I'm red. Why am I less than what I expected?
Overlooked, ignored, unnoticed as the only flower in the desert. But it's not the desert, is it? Am I kidding myself? Aspiring for the clouds when I can't even get out of the ground! I'm causing my own pain and suffering. I could turn around and ignore it. But I can't. I'm compelled to reach out and connect to someone, anyone. Why do I see beauty when others see the dark gray of nothing special? What if it is true? What if I have no depth, no shine? Awareness of my solitude leaves me colder than the solitude. Still no one cries for me.

Sunkissed

2006-01-16T16:59:00.000-08:00

skin, brown, touch, kiss, licking, wandering, roaming, touching, hair, soft, pulling, head, cheek, mouth, sweet, soft, strong, moist, taste, tongue, twisting, ankle, leg, thigh, soft, firm, velvet, smile, teeth, push, throb, run, walk, take, give, flowing, loving, whisper, goose-flesh, shoulder, breast, soft, rough, pain, joy, tortured, soft, done.

Echo

2006-01-12T19:25:00.000-08:00

You always come to me in the night; seeping slowly in with your warmth. I know the end but, reach out to you anyway. The hazy edges come into focus with the tickle of your hair on my thigh. Can you hear me sigh with content as your long chestnut tendrils slip softly through my fingers? Your rough hands rub so tenderly on my fragile waves; so sweet, so sweet. The slow trail of your warm breath on my cool skin tightens my peaks. Your leisurely worship teases my fancy. I arch into your kiss as you pierce the grape of joy. Covering my face with your feathered grip, I foolishly give you everything. I hold nothing back. What captivating light that comes from our eyes is shadowed by your tongue. Your voice of tumbling rocks brings back the biting cold. As the warmth fades away, I am left in the painful, sleeting darkness of your haunting turn and the muddy footprint of your scent. And still I ache to feel it again.

Reflection

2006-01-09T06:49:00.000-08:00

You’re thin. Your face is ugly and I want to smash it. I hide from you, but you always seem to find me. You are a stranger that I am very familiar with. You’re getting thinner and thinner, but you are taking me over. My breath is pouring out as you suck it in. And still you protect me while killing me all in one blink. I delight in your slumber as the desert delights in a thunderstorm; silently, tenderly.

Tears

2006-01-03T19:24:00.000-08:00

They sound like the roar of a lion and taste like shattered glass. Each spill sighs a silent glimmer. What story do you tell? None, for the prison hides you well.

Hole

2006-01-02T08:43:00.000-08:00

Down inside where everything is broken. Lost to light and embracing the dirt.
I do not struggle. Slain is the fight and charred is the skin.

Ugly

2005-12-28T19:21:00.000-08:00

weary, unwise, unloved, uncared for, and uncaring
Who will mourn? Not a single one whose name I know......for all names are tarnished. Where do you go, the people that she devours?
Your eternity is whispered from the wind as you guard the gates.

she

2005-12-26T11:55:00.000-08:00

...who is hidden, yet in plain sight
painful pleasure

Cut

2005-12-25T15:39:00.000-08:00

That other part of me wants it all and more. Smiling, laughing, playing....Eh. This part of me wants to run....get away....forget it all. The memories are confused and the future is set. Crimson regret and longing escape but for only a time.....always replaced with more and die without flavor.

The shower ambush

2005-12-23T07:56:00.001-08:00

{Edited for sanity}
I kept in all in check. Keep stuffing further and further.....put it on the dark side out of sight...I told myself. Moisture on your cheeks is just moisture when you're in the shower.