Ugly

weary, unwise, unloved, uncared for, and uncaring
Who will mourn? Not a single one whose name I know......for all names are tarnished. Where do you go, the people that she devours?
Your eternity is whispered from the wind as you guard the gates.

she

...who is hidden, yet in plain sight
painful pleasure

Cut

That other part of me wants it all and more. Smiling, laughing, playing....Eh. This part of me wants to run....get away....forget it all. The memories are confused and the future is set. Crimson regret and longing escape but for only a time.....always replaced with more and die without flavor.

The shower ambush

{Edited for sanity}
I kept in all in check. Keep stuffing further and further.....put it on the dark side out of sight...I told myself. Moisture on your cheeks is just moisture when you're in the shower.